d paSt is d past.....

yesterday was history...,
2morow is mystery......

ketika satu pin2 kebahagiaan tertutup...'
pintu yg lain dibukakan........
Tapi seringkali kita terpaku terlalu lama pada pintu yg tertutup..
Sehingga tidak melihat pintu yg lain dibukakan utk kita......

HHerm...2 ayat ni la yg T'save in my mind...don't know y...
i like 2 read it oweZ....
Actually, it's associated wif my seLF now....

Now,
i'm trying 2 ignore all d things that was happened wif me b4....
I'm pretending 2 ignore him even he was infront of me...
4 me...only that,
i can do when i see him...
But, actually i'm still remember n care wif him
is that wrong???

yEs..i admit...sometimes i really miss u....

I dont know y....itz really hard 4 me 2 buried evrythngs....
but i'm tellinG my SelF..u can do it Dai..juz take time only.Chayo2...
Love someone, it doesn't means we need 2 make him our Belongs rite...?
Need SaCriFice sometimes,,,,,

so,i've made up my mind..
2 FoRgive him...buried my feeling, close my heart
maybe,..that's Allah faith for me 2 let u go as u wish.....

Only Allah knows my feeling now how much i'm fight wif my selF during thinking about u......

hope U oweZ happy


Citer Simnggu My SBE...n now...( happy Vs Sad)

conTiNeu Back My story.....

ni la pic my skul

Ni pic ngn my students..hehheh

ni ngn bdk pra sekolah..
bezt giler..sporting hbs semua..
aftr wat ujian kognitif ngn dorang, ak n air ajar chicken dance..watermelon...watermelon..papaya...2x..





ni ngn bdk thn 4..




ngn bdk thb 5 bersih...

Citer pasal clas ni...sporting hbs semua..suka menari..siap b'shuffle..
..cg...cg..buyle kmb'shuffle?..pa lg...ak juz ckp la..bah..
hehe..mati la jg klu cg len nmpk..heheh...

meriah bah class..smpi students class len pn maw msk class ak n ain..heheh...

As conclusion...
..ada la jg sumbangn sikit ngn students...bg dorang somthng(present) ngn dorang hbs wat ujian kognitif...

..Kami berdua kena label "cg watermelon."
..ada la jg..ajar sikit sn, kt, m3..heheh(ala kuiz aja cikit)
..men bomB.....BomB..heheh
..chicken dance....

Citer luCu plak...
popular la jg jd CIGU ni...
heheh..ak n ain xhbs2 dapat kol n msj dr students kitorang,,.(terharu)
"cg saya nazmi dr clas 5 brsh..sapa nma sbnr cg?hahah..lucu..."cg bule Bknln?"(mati la jg..br budak pndi uda..)huhuh..
..Tapi...Actually semua student yg kol n msj ak,,ak x cam or ingt muka dorang...(klu satu kali jmp, mang ak x ingt muka org dr dlu smpi skrg)..tu la klmhn ak...cian kan...so bila kena msj or kol..ak ckp jak la."Ooo ya...kmu..cg ingt...(utk tdk mghmpkn pmint kecik)hahaha

Citer sdh Plak..

Bila erk...selasa or rabu.tyme ptg...tup2 ak tgh bsms ngn someone around 5.45pm..hp ak trus off..(pelik)...try on balik....tp x bule...screen problem....iSSSSSSSSSSSSsshhhhhhhhhhh...geramnya..hp rusak la plak...(huhu..juz bule sambut call jak skrg...)..ada problem kat wayar dlm dia....

..memandangkan my hp da keuZuran...tpksalah bli hp bru.....
..my sis da bli tyme hr jumaat klmrin...
yg menjadi sdhnya...hp tu trtinggal kat dlm bas....apa lg............hilang la....
my bro, da try tnydriver bus tu..tp x da..(sdh la ak..da la hpbr..blum kena rasmi lg..trus ilng).

Nsb la dpt persuade my beloved sis,,kak mia utk blikn hp br hr ni...heheh
dapat la satu hp br uda I(tnx sis)...tp ak still sdh..hp yg satu tu,,,org da amik..ni la manusia..x taw malu ambil hak orang lain!!

Coming back....hbs da tempoh jd Sigu Daya,...

Actually ni gmbr hr jumatt lps tyme shopping kunun.....ngn c ain (aftr g skul hntr brng)


Opz......blk ip sda...(br jak td smpi 8.30),,fikir black out...rpnya x...eheheh..tp............ip teda air oooo...malasnya....

..satu mggu x update blog....bz katakan kat skul SBE or PBS (skul based xprieNce..) kat sk pekan 1,,,semporna bersama c cg ain yg ku sayangi...heheheh...jum meh baca story ak.....

nite prepration b4 1st day sbe...
..hampir2 cekewa..cz bju br ak siap..dah siap actually ptg tu...tp........bju besar,,,skirt dia pn pnjg...so kena ubah blk..hntr ngn kak sepupu blk....nsb bek oo..jm 10pm dorang hntr tu bju tu g umah..apa lg..happy la bah....isat g skul mst la bah semua br..semngt bru katakan...hehehhe

purple my bju...bju sblh bj c ain

Jum citer..my 1st day at skul..


seawal 5.20 ak n ain bgn uda...(malas oo msh ngntuk..sejuk lg tu air)....aftr breakfst, my papa hntr kitorang g skul..jm 6.55 smpi..heheheh...

nervous gak...tp..msti kuatkan smngt....org 1st cg yg tgur ak n ain ialah my ustaz..ustaz azmi...pny tkjut..x sangka jmp anak murid dia blk.heheh..hbs citer jap,,kitorang trus lapor diri kat bilik GB...huhu...formal sih,tyme ak bckp ngn gb tyme lapor diri...heheh..tp ada sikit slek..my hp brbnyi....i measage received...(trlupa silent mode)..huh..malu oo..huhu..

after that..kotorang ikut prhmpnan pg...segan jg actually..dlu kan murid skul ni..tp krg sebaris plak ngn sigu2 yg len...(sukar nak gmbrkan prasaan balik smula ke skul lma dgn identiti yg brbeza)...
tyme prhmpnan pg...

hbs tu...kitorrang jmp pk...(bincang2..)then..mula la keja kitorang amik gmbr skul...



Trip bgmbr formal kat bilik KH...(nsb teda owg)hehhehe

....yupz...tnx ngn kengkawan cemua yg trus support ak utk "wake up" again.....
........ak da fikir, maybe yg terjadi ni ada hikmahnya...
klu ada judu , x ke mana jg...talk about luv again..rasanya ak x bersedia utk couple lg...takut utk kecewa lg....x sanggup lg utk rasa perit again....
along holiday ni, dai try lupakan dia...saja bz kan diri ngn bnyk hal...(apa lagi keja ak...makan, masak, tgk tv, jalan2, lepak ngn kazen n member lama hehehe)tp.....still ingt dia lg....x pa la...btl kata zaty n my twins...take time bebe...yupz i will...
...tp rasanya time cuti ni, frust pny pasal...makan aja ...so berat badan pun naik la jg..heheheh

so fast......

herm...dont know what 2 say..semua brlaku begi2 cepat sekali....sometimes..getting blur with it...what's going on?..
.........within 2 week, ak bz sangat...like mcm semua benda x teratur...mana nak hntr asgmnt, kajian lapangan,,tulung bdk IPIS....amat penat sekali rasanya lalui semua tu...da la muka ni tmbh sunburn i2 hr hbs sukan....nasib la....pengorbanan iP TAwau yg Tersinta kunun...heheheh

...actually ak taw maw tulis pa...conflict diri....sepa sangka finally i oledi clash with him (juz call him pai)....semua brlaku dr luar jangkaan ak...km ok syak dlm 2 minggu ni...tp..............start hbs sukan tu hr.... mcm ada x yg kena..tp ak diamkan ja...then,kitorang outing isnin hbs smbtn maulidur rasul...along tyme with him...i thought, there's somthng strange with him...like dia mcm dingin jak....ak pun pelik...bila tny dia ,,pai ok?..ya,,pai ok bah...so, ak pun diam2 jak la....

.................n then, bisuk hr dia...adlh hr yg amat mgecewakan....he wants clash wif me...dgn alasan mum dia cannot accept me cz of my race//..oh my God,,itz d only reason?...i can't believ...i couldn't acept d reason...itz that trully?...
....itz like funny..there's certain people still cannot accept others races?....itz not fair 4 me pai.....y..y?....ak taw mcm na nak brhdpn ngn ko bla kat ip...sakit rasanya....u juz throw me like a rubbish ...far away from ur life with so fast...itz not fair...i'm still luv u...y ko x prthnkan?y man?..i'm so dissapointed wif u..u ckap ngn yg len, tht's u still luv me...but y x pthnkan?..... dai akui,,family first,,,but..klu da taw mum pai x suka ngn my kaum..y truskan niat ht tu man?..hina sangat ka ngn kaum dai smpi x bule trima....?

....sakit rasanya bila someone yg kita mulai syg..tinggalkan kita........Ya ALLAh beri la ak kekuatan utk lupakan dia...hilangkan rasa sakit ht ngn dia/////....hilangkan lah rasa syg ni ngn dia.....TOLONGLA.......

..i'll try my hardest 2 4get anything about u....all about u...!!!!

TAK SANGKA!!!!



Herm...rpnya ada hikmah gak ak ikt BIG ni...(hehehe)...x sangka finally ak close wif "someone" until now..between me n him bnyk prsmaan (paling bezt dia pun x makan bawang..hahaha)..owez hapy jak bila ngn dia.nth la y....

..rasanya satu batch kitorang da label km da 'COUPLE'......whatever dorang nak ckp per..only me n c dia jak yg tau citer km berdua..hhahahah...maybe peristiwa kembara n aktiviti air ler yg mnyatukan kitorang..heheheh..kali la mungkin...

Hopefully our relationship will work n long lasting...(bahaya cz dua2x ni cpt bowink)..heheh..pa2 pun ak i will take care of him owez....i mizz him...

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